Missing someone special :(

Oh gee , wanna know what ?

I miss him badly .

I don't know why him .

I hope this feeling won't be long , 

because he's not mine & never will .

I know that :(

Yesterday is our last day .

I feel so damn fucking happy ,

Only God know's how happy i am yesterday .

Boy , you make me smile when i'm with you .

I felt very special when i'm with you .

I miss the way you treat me nice .

& Lastly , when you hugged me :(

awww boy <3

You're the only boy who ever treat me that special .

I won't revealed who's the person , 

I'm the only one who know's about it .

But sad part is , i'm losing him already .

He's gone , i miss him like no one else matter .

Urghh . 

He hug me :(

I felt special wen i'm with him .

There is just something about him .

I'm too comfort when im wit him .

I act myself , i don't have to pretend someone else wen im wit him .

No matter what , i'll gonna miss him :(

Seems like it would be a long long time i can't meet him .hmm 

Nvm , it's for his own good .

Okay boy , i hope you noticed that ILIKEYOU .

Ehh wait , i think i don't LIKE YOU anymore .

Because ILIKEyou more than that .

I'm falling in your arms .

ILOVEYOU

takecare at there btw .

When he hantar me go car , he hugged me :(

Woahh :o

I was dat surprise , really surprise .

Imagine it , he hug me infront all people .

Wahh , it feels like im the only who stand in this world when he hug me :(

When can i meet him again ?

The next 1 or 2 years ?

Gosh , that is too long .

You go right now jaak pun , makes me feel like losing you already .

Padahal , baru berapa jam yg berlalu :(

You treat me special .

Last day , last hug , last meal , last talk , IT ALL BECOME LAST bcoz you're not here anymore .

:( IMISSYOU .

Boy , i just wanna say im falling apart :/

Ok bye , takecare <3

-30062011-

Very special moment wit him . imisshimtotallyfreakinmuch :(

Punca-punca berlakunya fenomena ponteng sekolah dalam kalangan pelajar

            Ponteng? Apa itu ponteng? Ponteng adalah istilah yang digunakan bagi merujuk kepada apa jua kegagalan menghadiri kelas di sekolah secara sengaja tanpa alasan yang munasabah.  Menurut Kamus Dewan ponteng boleh dedifinisikan sebagai lari daripada tanggungjawab atau tugasan tanpa kebenaran. Istilah ini digunakan bagi kes ketidakhadiran yang berpunca daripada keinginan pelajar itu sendiri. Definisi sebenar mungkin berbeza mengikut sekolah, tetapi biasanya diterangkan secara jelas dalam peraturan setiap sekolah di Malaysia.

Sejak kebelakangan ini, berita tentang remaja menimbulkan masalah sosial sering kedengaran di mana-mana sahaja tak kira tempat . Hal ini diheboh-hebohkan melalui media massa tempatan. Sebenarnya, masalah sosial yang membabitkan remaja berlaku di seluruh dunia. Terutamanya mengenai isu pelajar ponteng sekolah. Sehubungan dengan itu, ada sesetengah pihak yang menyalahkan pengaruh rakan sebaya sebagai punca utama yang menyebabkan berlakunya masalah sosial ini. Pada saya, selain pengaruh rakan sebaya, terdapat banyak lagi punca lain.

Memang tidak dapat kita nafikan bahawa pengaruh rakan sebaya adalah salah satu punya yang menyebabkan sesetengah remaja terlibat dalam kegiatan yang tidak sihat ini. Saling mempengaruhi adalah sifat semula jadi manusia. Dalam usia mereka yang baru setahun jagung ini, remaja mudah terpengaruh dengan anasir-anasir luar. Bersesuaian dengan sifat seorang remaja yang sentiasa ingin mencuba menyebabkan mereka mudah terpengaruh dengan segala aspek yang disogokkan kepada mereka. Mereka yang jahil tidak dapat menilai sesuatu itu dengan baik. Contohnya, ponteng sekolah dan seterusnya melepak di pusat hiburan di luar sana. Perkara seperti ini sukar dibendung tanpa pengawasan daripada keluarga sendiri.

                Faktor yang seterusnya ialah pelajar mempunyai masalah peribadi yang dia sendiri tidak dapat elakkan. Contohnya seperti, didapati masalah yang berlaku dalam rumah tangga turut menjadi faktor kepada keruntuhan moral di kalangan remaja. Kepincangan yang berlaku dalam rumah tangga ibubapa mereka telah menyebabkan mereka berasa tekanan. Malahan, kepincangan rumah tangga ibubapa mereka yang sibuk dengan kerjaya atau sudah tidak sehaluan lagi turut menjadi beban kepada anak-anak remaja dan akhirnya menyebabkan mereka tidak ingin ke sekolah.

                Selain itu, seorang pelajar yang tiada matlamat dalam pembelajaran mereka lalu bersikap tidak mengambil berat terhadap pembelajaran dan akhirnya menyebabkan mereka malas hendak ke sekolah lalu memilih untuk meluangkan masa untuk melepak.  Perbuatan melepak ini ialah perbuatan yang tidak melakukan sebarang kerja kerana malas atau duduk di sesuatu tempat dengan berbual-bual kosong sepanjang hari. Jika ditelitikan, perbuatan melepak ini sebenarnya membawa banyak aspek keburukan kepada kita.

                Masalah seumpama ini membawa banyak kesan buruk kepada aspek pembangunan sosial negara kita malahan juga membawa nama buruk kepada sekolah kita sendiri. Tambahan pula, perbuatan yang sedemikian akan menjejaskan masa depan para remaja itu sendiri. Namun ini semua berlaku akibat sikap remaja itu sendiri yang menjurus kepada masalah keruntuhan moral remaja. Mereka sentiasa menurut hawa dan nafsu dalam menentukan haluan hidup. Namun, apa yang dapat dirumuskan ialah segala kemelut mempunyai jalan penyelesaiannya.       

NO COPY RIGHT OUKAYY ? :D I'M DONE WITH ESEI SO IM OFF :) TATA ^^                                                                   

Heart Defence

 I really intend to hurt their feelings ! SO WHAT ? 

Act , i do that has a reason . I don't wanna they fall out for me . 

I'm done with the words of "LOVE" !

 How many times should i say to you about thay boy ? 

PLEASE STOP DISTURBING me !

 I have no respect for the words of "LOVE" between two people . I'm sorry . 

Understand me please . I've closed my heart .

 I'm trying to be strong , i don't wanna get hurt anymore .

How i wish that my heart was made out of steel :(

I've closed my heart for other boys to go in just for you my boy :(

I miss all the moments that we have been thru together .

You wanna know something ?

It hurts me that badly when i saw you with other girl even his your friend .

I'm jealous . How i wish that girl would be me <3

I've learned to much about that words "LOVE" .

I'm DONE with that !

I will move on .

Forget you from my life , forget our sweetest memory ever , forget how you used to wish me goodnight wishes , forget how you treat me that well , forget how you use to feed me up some food , forget the way we use to talk heart to heart & eyes to eyes , forget how you use to came to my house n meet me , forget how we use to talk a lot on the phone , forget all the things that youever say to me & most of all FORGET THE THREE WORDS THAT YOU ALLWAYS SAY TO ME "I LOVE YOU" ! :(

There are so many things that i should forget about you boy .

But FYI , it's getting much harder when im trying to forget about you .

I Should stop missing you :(

That's all i can do for now .

MY LOVE IS JUST FOR YOU , MY HEART FALL TO PIECES ABOUT YOU , MY HEART CRIES OVER YOU , MY WARM HUG ARE JUST FOR YOU , MY SWEET LIPS FOR YOU . gosh boy :(

It's all JUST FOR YOU !

You see ?

I've proved it to you already right that i love you that much :(

But it's all up to you if you wanna believe it or not , i can't force you anymore .

It's your LIFE right ?

All i can do is just wait , wait wait & hope :/

You know what ?

I've formatted you from my heart before , but it keeps coming back .

My heart can only be fixed by you .

I'm too dump before for letting you go :(

This all came out from deep deep deep in my HEART boy :/

I mish you that bad until i can't sleep well at night .

THINKING OF YOU MAKES ME CRAZY :(

MORE CRAZIER EACH DAY .

FULLSTOP FOR OTHER BOYS TO KNOCK MY HEART !

It STOPS there when you leave me .

I've closed my heart .

I REALLY MISS YOU THAT MUCH .*sigh :/

Back To The DECEMBER again ?

Sudden i miss him .

Why should you came back to my LIFE ?

You do know that I LOVE YOU that much but still you came back to my LIFE :(

& Hey boy , you're LOVE will remains in my HEART forever .

I know you knew that bcoz i've told you before .

You know , you're name aka your FULL NAME is always stuck at my HEART .

Your face , your warm hug , sweet kisses ??

I miss all that boy :(

It feels like i've started to HATE boys .

Wanna know why ?

Bcoz you're the only one my HEART loves :/

Since that on , i've noticed by myself that i close the door of my heart for others .

You are my last :(

I hope one day , you will remember me as i remember you :(

You make all the broken pieces in my heart stays like that .

Just you can FIX it , NO OTHERS !

You think it's easy to forget the one that we really love ?

Gosh boy , DIFFICULTY :(

All my nights , i'm cryin . bcoz of wat ?

YOU :(

I try to avoid this feelings .

But sometimes it can came back automitically :/

Not that i never tried , i DID but it just can't be avoid it .

My heart really belongs to you already .

You're things , your shirt , your picture always by my side .

Boy , why should you came back to my life then suddenly you go away again ?

Do you really intend to hurt my feelings ?

I hope not , & please STOP doing like that .

You know i can't HATE you :(

I just can't .

Every minute that i hope it's you who will text me .

Boy , you make me close the door of my heart .

I'm not melting anymore with boys word , 

When im with them there's only one thing that i hope that much .

I hope the person that i'm with is you :(

Do you ever misses me ?

Don't you want our LOVE to be back together ?

My heart cries for you :(

I wash your t-shirt over and over again but still the smell is still the same like you ever give to me :(

Maybe by that way makes me feel that you were always there for me right ?

I'm cryin while doing this post ,

Hearing to the songs that you ever sang for me :(

Wearing your white t'shirt right now .

PFFT , you're the ONLY ONE EVER !

Happy Moment =)

Okay , where to start ?

Hmm , let'see .

Xtahu laa pa maw ckap .hha =.=

I have uncle , not a real uncle .

Fake uncle , ehh i mean bukan patung but macam foster uncle .hha !

BHaa , apa bha me merepek nhe ? * dont mind about it -.-

me xberapa betul laa malam nhe . ada sotsot sskit .

ehh , byk kali laa sotsotnya . ntah laa :/

bhaa , start balik cerr . i mean STORY aq yg TERTUNDA .xDD

I have one uncle that really really cares about me .

He's caring , kind , handsome young man , there is just to many to describe about him .

But really , he's friendly & i kinda miss him actually right now :(

I've known him last year maybe , im not that sure about that but im grateful enough that i have known him .hhe :)

THANKS UNCLE PIPIEY :D

Everytime i go jalan , confirm laa t'jmpa with him .

Talk2 kejap then chaw .

Never jalan with him but today me jalan with him . -25062011-

Nduu bhaa , baik ehh c uncle . hhe :)

& this hujung bulan he will be gone away .

Far away from Labuan , 

separate with his family , friends & me :(

Aiyahh >.<

But he go Sarawak pun got reason .

Continue schooling at there .

He say f he continue school at Sabah nnti t'gnggu pla pljrn dea .

Well , that's good bcoz he look after his FUTURE ;)

& uncle , this is for you ----->

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Best of luck in anything you do .

Do takecare wherever you go .

Jangan lupa diri .

Jaga makan & minum Uncle :)

Smile always .

Jangan sedihsedih :D

Okayy , that's all from Niece . hhe ^^

Some Picture of it :)

Hey uncle , thanks for being my uncle .

You're the GREATEST one ever :D

Emptyness in my HEART .

My life ain't like before .

What i meant is ,

BEFORE my life is full of HAPPINESS .

Not like now , 

PROBLEM keep on coming .

All i can do is just to be patient with all this .

I just have to act like there's nothing happen at all .

It works sometimes , but sometimes it doesn't :/

I want my OLD LIFE back actually .

I don't wanna be stranded in this year .

I wanna go back to the 2008 until 2010 .

This year is kinda sucks for me .

Not that no one love's me , 

They do love me , 

But i really just don't know what's in to me .

I hate to have couple for now .

I really don't know why .

Still searching for the answer that can satisfied me :(
I wish that i can go back to the old times right ?

I love the 2008 & 2009 muchie :/

I miss all that freakin moment .

damn :(

pfft , this is for YOU boy !

Like i say , i have closed my heart to LOVE a guy .

Pa lagi in this meanwhile .

I'm just not ready to be in a relationship with you .

You had the answer already right ?

So , i hope you understands it and appreciate my answer as well .

I just want you to move on .

We still can be friends , so please don't beg for me anymore ?

Because it's impossible for me to be with you back .

I just realise actually i don't love you at all .

You know that aite ? (:

& please forget me as your LOVER , remember me as your best ever BESTFRIEND :D

Happy =)

Well , tady balik jmpa dea .

aww <3

He wait me bhaa . hha !

Okay , thanks for giving me those things .

I will keep it carefully kayy ?

4 things that very important for me right now is your things that you gave me boy (;

Purple , White & Blue ?

Yeahh !

You know my favourite colour ?

I LOVE YOU LAA ! hhe :D

Thanks again , i thought u nervous but it seems okay jak suda toh kan Nike ?

hhe (;

& too those yang pkir kami kapel , you make a big mistake .

Me & him are just best friends .

Not more than that <3

By , DepcJ :)

Guilty feelings surrounds me :/

Yesterday i bawa Sazri break .

It's not that he's cheating or what .

He's kind , honest , loving & caring guy .

But , i really have to be HONEST to him .

I don't LOVE him at all .

Sincerely depc .

I did tell him the truth , 

& he was like "omg i can't accept this" 

But in the end , he did understands me .

He say his self that " i can't force you to LOVE me " .

Ok , so that's mean he understands me .

Thanks Sazri but im really SORRY for all this .

I break with him ngam2 on our second monthsary actually .

I'm sorry if i did hurted you .

& your text messages makes me sad :/

But im really sorry that i can't love you .

FYI , i did try but i just can't dude .

Sooo SORRRYYYYYYY :(

Actually , im feeling so much guilty for making u like this .

I can't sleep well thinking all of this ,

It's my mistake who makes you like this .

I ain't suppose to do like that to you .

You love me with all your HEART but me ?

I dumped you . 

Im sorry for not appreciating your love .

I really appreciate that you go find my house in the middle of the night with Nazrin .

ouchh <3

That's the greatest thing that boy ever do for me .

Hey dude , we still can be friends right ?

I don't want you to hate me .

I really hope that we can (:

Because actually i kinda miss your caring to me :/

Lastly , i'm SORRY again Sazri :(

I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND MY FEELING .

Bestfriends :)

I know that we're bestfrens .

& im happy to have fren like you .

But you treat me too special dude <3

Makes me melt .

Nobody ever do that to me .

RELI . 

How i miss that moment that you will watch out for me . sigh*

& wen you say " aq setia pada yg satu bha " infront of his frens .

woahh :o 

& his frens c leley , rauf , rick , chris , john & syajid ka f not mistaken say
" Paan , ambil berat betul ehh kaw sama c depc " .

& wen me maw balik , i say laa i wanna go home naik PRIVATE , 

he mad at me , dea ckap nda takut kena CULIK ka huh ?

Balik sama sama dea bilang . aww (;

Then time d library , i say sejuk laa .

& he pass his sweater to me even he know's dat he felt cold too .

But still , he gave me the sweater .

On our way to Leley's tatoo place kan panas .

he become my PAYUNG .hha

pity him .

But , i didn't ask him too but he wanted it too .

& Rauf also jady ADIK KESAYANGAN me .

bcoz punya laa cute him .hha + a GOOD friend to talk with .

& yeah , lots of memo by that time <3

PFFT , jangan salah sangka kayy ?

Kami hanya laa sekadar RAKAN BAIK .

When i have problem , i will tell him & same goes to him .

We share our problems together .

But , there's a but .

Me & him EVERYDAY FIGHTING WITH EACH OTHER .

& i reli have NO IDEA pasal apa -.-

+ yeah me syg him berabis . nike putih (:

LIBRARY (:

Okay , yesterday was great .

3 times go back home take bath & change baju .

Bukan apa , first pegy library sama my bestfren .

Then , balik ruma mamy ckap maw makan d luar . 

Okayy , i'm ON saja f pasal makan .

APA ENDA GEMUK .hha

Then balik ruma , kaka panggil bawa jalan .

again -.-

IKUT SAJA LAA . 

+ bored juga d ruma kan .

& hell yeah , balik ruma purse d dalam tinggal 2 renggau .xDD

apa saya beli ?

MAKANAN lagy .hha 

CHOCO (:

Picture with one of my best best bestfren ever <3

It SUPPOSE to be a HAPPY day but it ends with sucks day :/

Okay , today is my second monthsary with Sazri .

But i reli have no idea wat's in to me .

No mood at all .

& Father's day ?

woahh :o my DAD is not at home .

I MISS HIM :(

Tonight go Fisherman's Wharf but seriously laa mum i dun want to FOLLOW .

lazy + no mood at all !

pfft , i need NIKE PUTIH <3

HANYA DIA YANG PAHAM AKU (:

DJB Part5 :)

• "You couldn't get a clue during the clue mating season in a field full of horny clues if you smeared your body with clue musk and did the clue mating dance."
• "Young love is a flame; very pretty, often very hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. The love of the older and disciplined heart is as coals, deep-burning, unquenchable."
• "Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves works miracles in our lives."
• "One would always want to think of oneself as being on the side of love, ready to recognize it and wish it well --but, when confronted with it in others, one so often resented it, questioned its true nature, secretly dismissed the particular instance as folly or promiscuity. Was it merely jealousy, or a reluctance to admit so noble and enviable a sentiment in anyone but oneself?"
• "Love, I find, is like singing. Everybody can do enough to satisfy themselves, though it may not impress the neighbors as being very much."
• "First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity: no really self-respecting woman would take advantage of it."
• "Love makes everything that is heavy light."
• "A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous."
• "In real love you want the other person's good. In romantic love you want the other person."
• "In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
• "Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me."
•  "In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life."
•  "Come live with me and be my love, and we will some new pleasures prove, of golden sands, and crystal beaches, with silken lines and silver hooks..."
• "I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach..."
•  "I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."
• "Love distills desire upon the eyes, love brings bewitching grace into the heart."
• "Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."
•  "It's so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it's not always easy, To recognize Love, Even when we hold it.... In our hands."
•  "Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one."
• "In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
• "I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal."
• "There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."
• "Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."
• "Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition."
• "Love, till dawn sunder night from day with fire Dividing my delight and my desire..."
• "I see my fated stars in your eyes. They melt me like the sun does snow."
• "If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."
• "Love is a dream that comes alive when we meet." 
• "The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart. 
• "The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life."
• "You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
• "The most powerful symptom of love is a tenderness which becomes at times almost insupportable."
• "Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness."
•  "So dear I love him that with him,
  All deaths I could endure.
  Without him, live no life."
•  "True love is eternal, infinite, and always like itself. It is equal and pure, without violent demonstrations: it is seen with white hairs and is always young in the heart."
• "Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
  Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

NONSENSE again

Uhmm heyy (:

Thanks again for making me famous :D

Craving famous amos & finally i get it :)

At this time i was really craving for Famous Amos & finally i got it :)

yayy <3

DJB PART 4 =)

• LOVE is when there are a million things you want to say to someone , but when she looked you in the eyes and hold you in his arms , nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment .

DJB PART 3 :D

There are 3 kinds of secrets :D

1. Something that you hide at the bottom of your heart because you don't want it to be mentioned .
2. Something that you can't say even if you want to .
3. Something that you hope someone asks about even though you're hiding it .

• It's a lot easier to be lost than found . It's the reason we're always searching & rarely discovered , so many locks & not enough keys !
• There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone & trying to fiz everything , but it's not giving up . It's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap .
• Hold nothing back , speak how you feel cause life a fact & this shit is real .
• You were never suppose mean this much to me . I was never supposed to fall so hard . But you know what ? I DID & that's the truth , that what's keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell to let you go .
• I like to think that im over you .I like to tell people that i am . Sometimes i even convince myself that i am . The truth is im really really NOT :/
• Maybe im not supposed to be over him . I mean look at how many times i've tried . Maybe there's a point it's not working at all .

DJB part 2 :)

• Discover the person you are before you find the person to you need to be :)
• Your story doesn't always need a beginning before the end .
• Don't stop dreaming because there is no wrong in wanting something more .
• Don't try to fiz something that isn't broken :D
• Don't believe a promise that can only be broken .
• Don't let yourself be somebody's priority if they are only your choice .
• Learn something new , teach something old .
• Let go of the parts of life you honestly don't want .
• Some of the most wonderful people are the ones that who don't fit into boxes .
• We spend too long thinking about tomorrow when we could be learning from the yesterday we wanted to be today .
• Erasing yourself from somebody's life is not as simple as walking out the door .
• SARCASM , the witty will have fun , but the STUPID won't get it :)
• STRANGERS think i'm QUIET , my FRIENDS think i'm OUT GOING , my BESTFRIENDS think's im INSANE
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DJB EXISTENCE

Do not give up , the beginning is always the hardest .

January : REMEMBERING .
February : FORGETTING .
March : TRYING .
April : SOMETHING NEW .
July : FINDING HOME .
August : HEAT .
September : DISCOVERY .
October : MISSING EVERYTHING .
November : FRUSTATION .
December : HIGH HOPES .

Dear FZ .

Here's some story about a boy who cheats around !

His name ??? Ou dat's a SECRET !

Form 4 student okay , a guy obviously (:

Okay actually is about a boy who always give me an advice a boy .

He say , don't trust boys 100% bcoz lastly i will hurt myself .

& many more tips about boys laa .

But actually , i don't care about that .

Last night we call'ing each other .

Semalam we had fight .

He always say " I LOVE YOU DEPC " .

& my wanna know what is my reaction ?

I just say " ou , oukayy . wat eve ! " .

He say to me jgak kan don't believe at boys 100% .

So i did that .

Then last night we fight , & i dunnow y am i cryin .

It hurts me when he MAKI me :/

I never couple with him , just once but dat's before .

Now he became a guy where i luahkan all my feelings .

When im sad , or happy ill find him .

But now , we didn't contact each other already .

I kinda miss him actually eventhough he did make me at all .

hmm :/

LUMRAH KEHIDUPAN :'(