This day ?

This day ? arghh . 2 times in one day ?

wahh . i'm tryin to forget him bhaa . plez laa :/

GET OUT ! iloveyou but i can't force anything . hmm .

him ? yeah , i admit i cannot without his LOVE .

but , i will keep his LOVE to me before in my HEART forever :)

HOLD MY WORDS * imisshim btw .

so on for now , hmm :( 

Dear God , take care of him like You take care of me .

& like he take care of me before .

Happy Maybe :)

Today ? hmm . 

NO STORY to tell .

just on a happy mood :) idk y . aha . 

wondering*

Maybe bcoz processing forgetting him . ehe :)

I've try as my fren say soo .

won't hope dat much already . Don't want too layan ?

It's oke . ;D i'm fine without u kay ?

soo , anyway , all the best for you .

congrats again for the SPM result .

pfft , dedicate diz to -khairul anwar-

L O V E ?

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. 

It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. 

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. 

It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. 

Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

LOVE ? I'M TIRED BUT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU .

-KHAIRUL ANWAR-

I MISS HIM :(

There Are Few Things That Makes Me Miss Him ♥

First : I miss his hug .

Second : I miss his kisses .

Third : I miss he kisses my chick .

Fourth : I miss when he kiss my eyes ♥

Fifth : I miss when he kiss my forehead <3

6 : I miss when he bribe me chocolate .

7 : I miss when he kiss me before i go to sleep .

8 : I miss when he dodoi me until i fall asleep .

9 : I miss to hear his voice .

10 : I miss when he sing a song for me with his guitar :)

11 : I miss when he hug me then he carry me eventhough he know i'm heavy :p

12 : I miss him when i wake up he gave me a sweet kisses :D

13 : I love to see him while he's playing game .

14 : I love the way he look into my eyes walaupun malu ckit :p

15 : I love when we hangout at the beach at nite while eating choco . ( he know's my fav )

16 : I miss when he try to PUJUK me ;(

17 : I miss when he always surrender in any of our fights :(

18 : I miss to hear all his madness .

19 : I miss when he ask me first before he go for a walk .

20 : I miss all about him laa :(

Onf Of All , I miss when he say to me "ILOVEYOUMAMA" . 

From your lover forever , DEPSY JANE ♥

Dedicate this to my ex KHAIRUL ANWAR :)

I Can't Sit Reticent ;(

Girls , i reli need him ou :(

All my life , i never been in diz situation . 

He's the only one hu make me like thiz .

Dear khai , imissyoulikehell fyi .

astaga , i can't be alone in the room if u wana know ;(

all our memories will be fresh back in my mind . 

i never forget all dat ;( khairul anwar , imissyou t'amat !

i can't forget you , i've tried . but i juz can't .

it's HARD !

All i can say is I LOVE YOU !

"berat hidup ini tanpa dirimu
ku hanya mencintai kamu
ku hanya memiliki kamu"

I reli just want u too know dat imissyoulikehell !

plez laa , give me a chance . ineedyou :(

you noe dat aite ? hmm .

"aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu

sungguh ku ingin kau tahu

ku tak bisa hidup tanpamu

aku rindu…''

By Depc aka your lover forever :(

Lyrics Of Fucking Perfect : )

IDK y <3 this song muchie . I Just felt that i ave connection with the lyrics :D

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That’s alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood

Miss “no way it’s all good”

It didn’t slow me down

Mistaken

Always second guessing

Underestimated

Look, I’m still around…

Pretty, pretty please

Don’t you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin’ perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

You’re so mean

When you talk

About yourself

You are wrong

Change the voices

In your head

Make them like you

Instead

So complicated

Look how big you’ll make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It’s enough

I’ve done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

See you same

Pretty, pretty please

Don’t you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin’ perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in lying and I tried tried

But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere

They don’t like my genes, they don’t get my hair

Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that?

Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,

Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel

Like you’re less then, fuckin’ perfect

Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel

Like you’re nothing you’re fuckin’ perfect, to me

You’re perfect

You’re perfect

Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less then, fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing you’re fucking perfect to me

P/S : Dear Khai , don't you feel what i feel for you ? ;'( hmm . imy like hell !

My Spectacle Collection =)

Okay , here we go . This Is one of my collection : )

LIKE IT ? thanks . But HATE IT ? i won't give a DAMN . ;D

I started collecting diz wen i saw my mum wears chanel spectacle : )

SIKIT jaa nhe ;'( i want more .

Most of them are RayBan <3

Depan sekali toh CHANEL : ) nice one ryte ?

Credits For My Mr.Ambuk : )

Happy For Him Eventhough He Doesn't Know It , But idc laa f dea taw o not .

I'm just HAPPY for his achievements <3

FLYIN COLOURS ou . congrats . 

tidak menyesal saa mintak tunjuk ajar kaw in SEJARAH (subjek yg i xpndai ) !

hmm , wat to say arr ? ok , hope after diz u get wat u want : )

you're achievements makes me so happy laa 4 u . 

i wonder y . hmm . :/

My Life , People All Just The Same .

I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be "happy." I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all.

Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace.

Use a past defeat as a motivator. Remind yourself you have nowhere to go except up as you have already been at the bottom.

ﻪĸս ოﻪĸﻨռռռ รﻪկﻪ(N)ց ĸﻪოսս ♥

Dedicate this for my Mr.Ambuk , MyexHONEYBOY aka KHAIRUL ANWAR ;'(

Khai , i miss to call you "papa" ;'(

Can i still call you with dat name ? urghh . imy !

Do you want to know something ?

Hey, all my life i never be like his before .

You MAKE ME LIKE THIS ! FALL IN LOVE TO YOU DEEPLY !

You are making my situation veryvery hard ehh ;'(

Could you just get out from my mind ? PLEASE , i'm tired .

I want to stop CHASING you , but how can i do that ?

It's HARD ! HARD bha . don't you know that ? uhmm ;'(

FYI , I can let you go but my HEART don't talk about it .

IT CAN'T BECAUSE IT BELONGS TO YOU ALREADY ! ;'(

pee/ass : I ♥ YOU SO MUCH NO MATTER WHAT . WANNA KNOW SOMETHING ? I WILL WAIT IF I CAN , BUT I'M SURE I CAN BECAUSE MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU . NOBODY CAN TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME . Anyway , i'm jealous those yg wall u at FB . ee :/ PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME LIKE THIS . INEEDYOUINMYLIFE IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ;'( -KHAIRUL ANWAR-

BY ,  your lover forever , 

DEPSY JANE aka THEHONEYGIRL;'(

sob sob sob ;'(

BE AT MY HEART & FEEL IT ;'(

 I miss him ;'( You seems don't care at all . hey , be at my place . You will know how much i need you ;'( gosh . Don't make me like this . Don't let me do for the 2nd time for you :/ This time more deeper than before ;'( iloveyou ♥ Can you feel that ? Don't You Know How Much You Meant To Me ? Let me tell , Really Really BERMAKNA ♥ BE AT MY HEART AND YOU WILL KNOW ;'(

KHAIRUL ANWAR , iloveyou ♥ NO MATTER WHAT ;'(

I JUST NEED YOU IN MY LIFE . THAT'S ALL .

PLEASE :/

Coversation between me and my mum :)

Mum asking me about him :D (takut2 nhe aka gagap, mana laa taw kena marah. aha !)


Mum : You really love this boy ka ?
Me : Yeah bha mum , but angguk2 ;'(
Mum : Tapi kenapa dea cakap dea ada minat org len toh .
Me : Mmy , hard to explain . bcoz mmy tia taw wat is our real problem .
Mum : Hmm . So you still want to be with him ? Tapi kan kamu sudah break up . Macam mna lgi ?
Me : Eto laa bha mmy . saa syg dea ;'(

Our conversation ENDS there ;'(

pee/ass : Seems my mum understands my feelings . Macam maw minta tolong mum ja ou :/ i want him bha . KHAIRUL ANWAR ;'( sgt2 .  

imisshim ;'( sorry .

girls , remember my last post the oder day " we must show to them dat we're strong" . oke .
now , i'm reli reli weak wit my own situation . it's not dat i dun wana fight for my feelings . i reli want it too . but , i'm soo sory too weak . reli weak . how can i xpress it to you ? khai , ineedyou :/ i'm sorry . my mum , she agree ody . but , juz dat we're not longer anymore together . aite ? can you be mine back ? please :/ hold my promise . i will not stop hoping . i just need you . NOBODY ELSE ! about our problem , hmm , i'm sorry about that .
oke , i need to tell you something . yesterday after u go home ody , mamy ask me ? "kaw betul2 syg hhim?" . n i was like shud i tell the truth . but , i did . me angguk . then , mamy say u reli want to be wit him ? angguk again . but , mamy kecil aty wit your text msg yg u say "aq ada minat org len" . mamy pun terkejut . so she buat andaian dat you're only playing me n my feelings though . but , i noe u didn't . coz we're in different problem . aiyahh -.- anyone understands me ka ? reli . i need him :/ please God ;'(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3mP34Uznyk


this songs , dedicate this to you :/

posto posto :)

wah , lama gylak suda me unline nhe . i'motw off suda . soo guys , yg putus cinta tohh . be strong kay ? so do i ;'( oke , 4get bout it . girls , show to them that we're not weak . oke ? love ya guys <3 i'm out .


nytenyte <3 9.58p.m. :)

Oh NOOO !

guys , school is going to reopen .
u guys ready suda ka ?
matik laa , me mc maw holiday ou ;'(

Day With Boo DANEDANE :) imissthiskiddo.

 This is daniel hugh :) nice name he got aite ?

This is wen my mum took our pic but he don't want . malu2 knun bha . cehh :p

Wana know sumtink ? he say's "wahh" wen he saw his own pic . ee . geram aq .

This is his 2nd pic . sukak dea b'gambar ou :) b'gya kan ?

my 1st picture with him . dea cute dari saya . marah nhe :p

I hold him tight . he's to heavy . imagine 23kg for kid 3/4 y'o . berat kan ?

He don't want too stop taking picture ody this time ;)


oke , dat's all . 
many again pic dea nhe . 
but , i only upload sum 4 u guys to see .
hate it ? i won't even care . it's mine . 
not yours :) PEACE :D

Stop loving ?

Loving ?

yeah , it's nice wen we are not fighting .

but , it hurts the most wen we're fighting . 

ijustneedhim ;'(

godd .

All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

There is just something about you :D

My love for you is a journey;

Starting at forever,

And ending at never.

I give him all my love,
that’s all I do.
And if you saw my love,
you’d love him too. I love him.

My Love For You Are Deep Like Ocean :)

Because of deep love, one is courageous. 

Because of frugality, one is generous. 

Because of not daring to be ahead of the world, one becomes the leader of the world.

There can never be deep disappointment
where there is deep love.

Just Read It :D

Him ? Khai ?
He makes my day AWESOME .
without him i'm juz notink . cehh . kunun nhe . 
but , dat's the fact dat i can't even avoid oke ?
dat's true :D i juz <3 him muchie .
he gave me sumtink dat guys never gave me before .
wana know wat ?
the TRUE LOVE <3

To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others.