Saturday, 28 May 2011

Day to say Hey KOTA KINABALU

Hello bloggies :)
Well , this will be my last post for this day .
I'm going back to my hometown .
It's been a month since i didn't go back there .
I miss all my crazy cousins .
Mostly , i miss playin at kebun & terjun at sungai .hha
Best memo ever wit Jeremy <3
My handsome cousin :p
Anyway , will be gone for a week .
3 days at KK and most of the day at kampung .
Going to my granny kebun , help him clean clean sumtink der .
& my cousin Andrea i hope she's going to look more GORGEOUS .
She just came out from Hospital , dat's the sad part .
But luckily , God loves my cousin and save her .
So , i'll spend my whole howls with her <3
Tata facebook , will not have time to online ,
& mybe no phone will be allowed . ( i hope xlaa ) 

Wednesday, 25 May 2011

Next EPISODE of my LIFE STORY ;)

Izinkan diriku yang tidak seberapa ini,
Untuk memeluk kembali cinta yang pernah kita jalinkan,
Andai kau tahu apa yang tersirat di dalam isi hatiku,
Ingin aku nyatakan dan ungkapkan seberapa besar cintaku untuk mu,
Kaulah lelaki terindah yang pernah hadir dalam diriku,
Aku disini masih menanti cinta lama itu kembali padaku lagi,
Berharap cinta kita akan bersatu kembali walaupun aku tahu sukar untuk terjadi,
Namun , aku hanya mampu berharap dan berserah kepada Tuhan sahaja.


Hati ini betul-betul merasa kehilangan,
Yang sebelum ini tak pernah aku merasainya,
Aku tahu hubungan aku dan dia tidak seberapa lama seperti iyang aku inginkan,
Tapi hanya dia lelaki yang telah menutup pintu hatiku untuk bercinta lagi,
Ingin sekali aku untuk memulakan hidup baru tanpa dia di sisi,
Dan ingin juga diri ini untuk mencintai orang lain,
Namun aku tidak dapat melakukan semua itu lagi,
Kerana hatiku telah terkunci dan hanya tertumpu pada seseorang,
Hidup aku masa kini dibelenggu cinta dia,
Yang selalu sedih dan rindu akan dirinya,
Diri ini masih pada zaman aku dan dia masih bersama :/

Monday, 23 May 2011

His mind is somewhere far away, and I don't know how to get there.

Baru pertama kali aku berasa begini,
Dengan hati yang hancur dan penuh duka,
Seolah-olah separuh nyawaku telah tiada,
Semua ini berlaku disebabkan kebodohan aku,
Aku tidak pernah menghargai dia,
Bukan juga aku tidak sayang sama dia,
Aku sayang dia sangat-sangat,
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa rindunya aku sama dia,
Namun ini semua berlaku disebabkan aku tidak mendengar kata-kata dia,
Dan kini balasannya ialah aku telah kehilangan dia,
Aku tidak pernah berharap perkara sebegini akan berlaku,
Tetapi, mungkin inilah jalan yang telah ditakdirkan oleh Tuhan untuk aku,
Aku hanya boleh menerimanya dengan hati yang ikhlas,
Walaupun sukar untuk menerima kenyataan bahawa dia telah tiada di sisi ku.

Sebelum ini aku memang pernah bercinta,
Namun baru kini aku merasa betul-betul kehilangan seseorang insan yang aku sayangi,
Dalam jalinan hubungan yang aku jalankan,
Baru hari ini, waktu ini, detik ini PINTU HATI aku TERKUNCI untuk SESEORANG yang berada di MASA LALU ku.
Sangat pedih bila aku mengenangnya kembali,
Dengan harapan yang tinggi dia akan menjadi milik aku lagi,
Dan orang itu hanya Tuhan yang tahu,
Sukar untuk aku ungkapkan dengan kata-kata,
Tetapi semua ini amat perit untuk aku hadapi sendiri,
Aku hanya ingin menjadi seperti dahulu kala,
Yang selalu senyum tanpa sebarang masalah mahupun hati yang hancur,
Yang merasa diriku DISAYANGIM DIJAGA , & diberi perhatian serta belaian KASIH SAYANG seorang kekasih yang memahami dan menerima aku apa adanya.
Namun, adakah ini semua hanya akan menjadi angan-anganan ku ? :/

Dalam sesuatu hubungan memang ada masalah,
Jika tiada maka hubungan itu hanyalah penuh dengan kepura-puraan,
Tanpa ada perasaan yang ikhlas serta jujur bercinta,
Kekadang CINTA itu INDAH,
Ianya akan menjadi indah jika kita diberi kasih sayang, belaian penuh mesra,
Namun cinta itu juga perit bagi aku untuk menerimanya namun harus juga aku hadapi,
Apabila kita kehilangan seseorang itu,
Bru juga kita belajar untuk menyesalinya,
Kenapa kita tidak berfikir sebelum kita BERTINDAK ?
Jawapannya sudah tentu semua orang tahu,
Kerana kita telah syok dibelnggu dengan perasaan cinta.

Yang hanya ingin aku katakan ialah cinta itu MEMILUKAN!
Tidak banyak kemanisan dalam bercinta hanya kepahitan,
Terlalu banyak kenangan yang sukar dilupakan,
Dan terlalu perit juga untuk diingati <3

----> Aku hanya mampu mengungkapkan apa yang ada di HATI aku.

You've got me laughing while I sing, you got me smiling when I sleep.

Day by day ,
I'm turning old .
Getting full of stress -.-
I should enjoy my LIFE before im out from this amazing world of mine ;)


And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love, When all my resistance will never be distance enough .


Run far away so I can breathe, even though you're far from suffocating me.


His mind is somewhere far away, and I don't know how to get there.


I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention, I'm staring at perfection


I watched his wildest dreams come true, and not one of them involving you.


Every word feels like a shooting star, watching the shadows burning in the dark.


You know what they say about hope. It breeds eternal misery.


If I had to hear something like that, I'd want to hear it from you.

Friday, 20 May 2011

Next week will be KAAMATAN DAY

Happy enough & can't wait . hhe ;D
Bcoz on saturday o sunday maybe i'm goin back to my hometown .
miss penampang muchie :/ i dunoe y . maybe bcoz of my crazy cousins at der . 
Wait me then , i'm goin home :) hha !
ONE WEEK NO FB , soo awesome :D
just enjoy myself there & took a lot lot lots of picture .hha

Thursday, 19 May 2011

One monthsary

Today is the day :) 
But , i want to apologize for not being on mood -.-
I oso dunoe wat's in to mee . reli :/
I'm tired with life .
it sucks . reli sucks :/


anyway , bie , 
it's our monthsary .
i love you <3
I hope this relationship stay's forever together .
Don't cheat kay ? PLEASE ? :[
I've started believing on you so don't dissapoint me .
I heard a lot of stories about you but i don't mind .
I know you've change . aite b ? :D
I LOVE YOU <3

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

What a great day ever !

Anneyong Hasseyo <3
Guess who i met ?
Well , i don't wanna mention his name .
It's enough . but , gosh . hmm :/


‎: I closed the door of the heart to love. I'm tired hurting myself. Enough with the name of love. Love does not exist I have in myself. I keep it as a fortress my heart's defense. I know I'm not that weak you think so far. I know I will not gonna love anyone else again. It's enough. You're the last. I won't learned to love anyone again ♥

Today , school

HHa . today is my DAY :)
i meet him . well , sad part is we meet only for a while .
but , i consider as my satisfied bcoz long tyme didn't meet him hhe :)

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

I miss her miss TERKEJUT

I have a pen , 
My pen is blue
I have a friend , 
My friend is you


There's a girl that i've just meet .
Yeah , at first tak rapat .
But makin lama me rapat sama dea , 
makin me suka sebab she's frenly to talk wit .
aka PENDENGAR SETIA knun kan :D hha !
well , is juz dat i love to be her fren .
& hell yeah guys , i learn to speak sarawak'ian .
abit ony laa . she teach me :D 
But , i dunoe y wen it comes to exam week , we become far apart .
& yeah i admit dat me KECIL HATI sma dea .
i wonder y dea m'jauh nhe :[
I just miss to hug her , aka mcm TEDDY ou :)
I hope she notice that , i consider her as my bezfren already <3


Actually i miss to be your friend , we use to be close together but seems you have a new friend that more equal to you it's ok :D

--> Dedicate this to someone that i consider as my new bestfriend who understands me as well . AM ♥

Saturday, 14 May 2011

Release stress

Just now i have fun , reli fun :D
i release all my stress at the beach ^^ thanks God :)
i laugh all the time & thanks to my awesome girl shasha for being my friend the whole day .
well , me n melvin didn't plan want to go for an picnic but we did go to the beach .
& yeah , i didn't bring any extras t-shirt , bcoz like i say we didn't plan to go beach .
So , we play volleyball at the sea , but until paras lutut saja bcoz tyda baju takut wet .hha 
then , while playing c bakri catch the ball then BASAH KUYUP laa me .
pa lae sambung play wit they all , melvin , bakri , dom , tonk , & the others :)
me & shasha the ONLY girl .hhe :)
how me balik ? masuk jaa in car wit the WET T-SHIRTS & SHORTPANTS .hha 
but still , i have my day :)
thanks to them :D

Saturday, 7 May 2011

Thrilled enough

At 8.00p.m just now till 10.00p.m. i stay with him .
Keluar jaa fisherman's wharf , trus dea bwa me jalan .
Me ON saja nhee ;) hha ^^ 
but , wit my mum permission opcoz .
Okay , we jalanjalan pusing labuan in car .
CERITA-CERITA about the first tyme we met ,
how we couple , & how we break up :[
& Yeah , my things that i ever gave to him he put it in his car laa . 
aww <3 imisshim !
My picture di cermin kereta lae bhaa .
He pasang lagu JIWANG . sehh , romantic laa .
Then , we go tanjung aru watch people race .
& sikit lae tdy he maw join . me MARAH & dea dgr . hha !
Well , i will not gonna couple back wit him oke .
We're juz frens hu ever be couple .
TEMAN TAPI MESRA : )
& yeah one thing , wen kami p MCD , 
before trun car he bisik at me"ILOVEYOU , IMISSYOU" .
hhe ; ) well , he's sweet laa .
It's been a year we didn't meet each other . really .sigh*
long tme ryte ?
We couple for 1 years & 8 months .
me sempat lae marah him tdy , but im sorry .
GERAM bhaa . eu jaat kan :[
Then balik he hantar me , i salam him than tata ^^
ee , when i trn from dat car , mcm berat aty nhee .
rindu dea suda betabis :[ 
nemind , nex week jalanjalan wit him again : ) muahh !
MOHAMMAD ASMAWIE AZIZI BIN MOHAMMAD ASNAN is MINE ! : )






okay , this is him .
Well , gambar LAMA ok !
Time me form 1 .
LAMA kan ?
Bru jaa JUMPA BALIK : )
imisshimfreakinmuch suda .
Moment with him is very precious moment .
fyi , MOHAMMAD ASMAWIE AZIZI BIN MOHAMMAD ASNAN :D

Friday, 6 May 2011

Nervous but acting like nothing.hha

Okay :/
Nex week on 9 May 2011 will be the first semester exam . jyeahh .
Happy laa jugak coz can't wait till holiday .
but sad part , im not ready for exam . hha
bcoz i didn't study at all & now im acting like there's no EXAM !
good girl kan me ? hha .
stupid ehh . nemind , ill study soon :)

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Miss Drama Queen

Oke , i cry enough . 
ENOUGH ! 
I know i miss him freakin much , as i need him badly in my LIFE . 
But , it's only a dream already . oke :[
& i understand dat .
This picture below shown how much i cry for you 2412 .


Dear 2412 , all my tears are all for you .
& Now i'm DONE with all dat .
Yeah i admit that sometimes i do cry bcoz of you but i want to STOP all that a.s.a.p !
Im tired .