Wednesday 30 March 2011

This day ?

This day ? arghh . 2 times in one day ?
wahh . i'm tryin to forget him bhaa . plez laa :/
GET OUT ! iloveyou but i can't force anything . hmm .
him ? yeah , i admit i cannot without his LOVE .
but , i will keep his LOVE to me before in my HEART forever :)
HOLD MY WORDS * imisshim btw .
so on for now , hmm :( 
Dear God , take care of him like You take care of me .
& like he take care of me before .

Tuesday 29 March 2011

Happy Maybe :)

Today ? hmm . 
NO STORY to tell .
just on a happy mood :) idk y . aha . 
wondering*
Maybe bcoz processing forgetting him . ehe :)
I've try as my fren say soo .
won't hope dat much already . Don't want too layan ?
It's oke . ;D i'm fine without u kay ?
soo , anyway , all the best for you .
congrats again for the SPM result .
pfft , dedicate diz to -khairul anwar-

Saturday 26 March 2011

L O V E ?


LOVE ? I'M TIRED BUT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU .
-KHAIRUL ANWAR-

I MISS HIM :(

There Are Few Things That Makes Me Miss Him 

First : I miss his hug .
Second : I miss his kisses .
Third : I miss he kisses my chick .
Fourth : I miss when he kiss my eyes 
Fifth : I miss when he kiss my forehead <3
6 : I miss when he bribe me chocolate .
7 : I miss when he kiss me before i go to sleep .
8 : I miss when he dodoi me until i fall asleep .
9 : I miss to hear his voice .
10 : I miss when he sing a song for me with his guitar :)
11 : I miss when he hug me then he carry me eventhough he know i'm heavy :p
12 : I miss him when i wake up he gave me a sweet kisses :D
13 : I love to see him while he's playing game .
14 : I love the way he look into my eyes walaupun malu ckit :p
15 : I love when we hangout at the beach at nite while eating choco . ( he know's my fav )
16 : I miss when he try to PUJUK me ;(
17 : I miss when he always surrender in any of our fights :(
18 : I miss to hear all his madness .
19 : I miss when he ask me first before he go for a walk .
20 : I miss all about him laa :(

Onf Of All , I miss when he say to me "ILOVEYOUMAMA"


From your lover forever , DEPSY JANE 
Dedicate this to my ex KHAIRUL ANWAR :)

Friday 25 March 2011

I Can't Sit Reticent ;(

Girls , i reli need him ou :(
All my life , i never been in diz situation . 
He's the only one hu make me like thiz .
Dear khai , imissyoulikehell fyi .
astaga , i can't be alone in the room if u wana know ;(
all our memories will be fresh back in my mind . 
i never forget all dat ;( khairul anwar , imissyou t'amat !
i can't forget you , i've tried . but i juz can't .
it's HARD !
All i can say is I LOVE YOU !

"berat hidup ini tanpa dirimu
ku hanya mencintai kamu
ku hanya memiliki kamu"

I reli just want u too know dat imissyoulikehell !
plez laa , give me a chance . ineedyou :(
you noe dat aite ? hmm .

"aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu
sungguh ku ingin kau tahu
ku tak bisa hidup tanpamu
aku rindu…''


By Depc aka your lover forever :(

Lyrics Of Fucking Perfect : )

IDK y <3 this song muchie . I Just felt that i ave connection with the lyrics :D

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss “no way it’s all good”
It didn’t slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I’m still around…

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You’re fuckin’ perfect to me

You’re so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin’ perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You’re fuckin’ perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my genes, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less then, fuckin’ perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing you’re fuckin’ perfect, to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect
Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing you’re fucking perfect to me


P/S : Dear Khai , don't you feel what i feel for you ? ;'( hmm . imy like hell !

My Spectacle Collection =)

Okay , here we go . This Is one of my collection : )
LIKE IT ? thanks . But HATE IT ? i won't give a DAMN . ;D
I started collecting diz wen i saw my mum wears chanel spectacle : )




SIKIT jaa nhe ;'( i want more .




Most of them are RayBan <3




Depan sekali toh CHANEL : ) nice one ryte ?

Thursday 24 March 2011

Credits For My Mr.Ambuk : )

Happy For Him Eventhough He Doesn't Know It , But idc laa f dea taw o not .
I'm just HAPPY for his achievements <3
FLYIN COLOURS ou . congrats . 
tidak menyesal saa mintak tunjuk ajar kaw in SEJARAH (subjek yg i xpndai ) !
hmm , wat to say arr ? ok , hope after diz u get wat u want : )
you're achievements makes me so happy laa 4 u . 
i wonder y . hmm . :/

Monday 21 March 2011

My Life , People All Just The Same .

I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be "happy." I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all.

Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace.


Use a past defeat as a motivator. Remind yourself you have nowhere to go except up as you have already been at the bottom.

Sunday 20 March 2011

ﻪĸս ოﻪĸﻨռռռ รﻪկﻪ(N)ց ĸﻪოսս ♥

Dedicate this for my Mr.Ambuk , MyexHONEYBOY aka KHAIRUL ANWAR ;'(

Khai , i miss to call you "papa" ;'(
Can i still call you with dat name ? urghh . imy !
Do you want to know something ?
Hey, all my life i never be like his before .
You MAKE ME LIKE THIS ! FALL IN LOVE TO YOU DEEPLY !
You are making my situation veryvery hard ehh ;'(
Could you just get out from my mind ? PLEASE , i'm tired .
I want to stop CHASING you , but how can i do that ?
It's HARD ! HARD bha . don't you know that ? uhmm ;'(
FYI , I can let you go but my HEART don't talk about it .
IT CAN'T BECAUSE IT BELONGS TO YOU ALREADY ! ;'(

pee/ass : ♥ YOU SO MUCH NO MATTER WHAT . WANNA KNOW SOMETHING ? I WILL WAIT IF I CAN , BUT I'M SURE I CAN BECAUSE MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU . NOBODY CAN TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME . Anyway , i'm jealous those yg wall u at FB . ee :/ PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME LIKE THIS . INEEDYOUINMYLIFE IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ;'( -KHAIRUL ANWAR-


BY ,  your lover forever , 
DEPSY JANE aka THEHONEYGIRL;'(

sob sob sob ;'(

BE AT MY HEART & FEEL IT ;'(

 I miss him ;'( You seems don't care at all . hey , be at my place . You will know how much i need you ;'( gosh . Don't make me like this . Don't let me do for the 2nd time for you :/ This time more deeper than before ;'( iloveyou ♥ Can you feel that ? Don't You Know How Much You Meant To Me ? Let me tell , Really Really BERMAKNA ♥ BE AT MY HEART AND YOU WILL KNOW ;'(
KHAIRUL ANWAR , iloveyou ♥ NO MATTER WHAT ;'(
I JUST NEED YOU IN MY LIFE . THAT'S ALL .
PLEASE :/

Coversation between me and my mum :)

Mum asking me about him :D (takut2 nhe aka gagap, mana laa taw kena marah. aha !)


Mum : You really love this boy ka ?
Me : Yeah bha mum , but angguk2 ;'(
Mum : Tapi kenapa dea cakap dea ada minat org len toh .
Me : Mmy , hard to explain . bcoz mmy tia taw wat is our real problem .
Mum : Hmm . So you still want to be with him ? Tapi kan kamu sudah break up . Macam mna lgi ?
Me : Eto laa bha mmy . saa syg dea ;'(


Our conversation ENDS there ;'(


pee/ass : Seems my mum understands my feelings . Macam maw minta tolong mum ja ou :/ i want him bha . KHAIRUL ANWAR ;'( sgt2 .  

Saturday 19 March 2011

imisshim ;'( sorry .

girls , remember my last post the oder day " we must show to them dat we're strong" . oke .
now , i'm reli reli weak wit my own situation . it's not dat i dun wana fight for my feelings . i reli want it too . but , i'm soo sory too weak . reli weak . how can i xpress it to you ? khai , ineedyou :/ i'm sorry . my mum , she agree ody . but , juz dat we're not longer anymore together . aite ? can you be mine back ? please :/ hold my promise . i will not stop hoping . i just need you . NOBODY ELSE ! about our problem , hmm , i'm sorry about that .
oke , i need to tell you something . yesterday after u go home ody , mamy ask me ? "kaw betul2 syg hhim?" . n i was like shud i tell the truth . but , i did . me angguk . then , mamy say u reli want to be wit him ? angguk again . but , mamy kecil aty wit your text msg yg u say "aq ada minat org len" . mamy pun terkejut . so she buat andaian dat you're only playing me n my feelings though . but , i noe u didn't . coz we're in different problem . aiyahh -.- anyone understands me ka ? reli . i need him :/ please God ;'(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3mP34Uznyk


this songs , dedicate this to you :/

Friday 18 March 2011

posto posto :)

wah , lama gylak suda me unline nhe . i'motw off suda . soo guys , yg putus cinta tohh . be strong kay ? so do i ;'( oke , 4get bout it . girls , show to them that we're not weak . oke ? love ya guys <3 i'm out .


nytenyte <3 9.58p.m. :)

Thursday 17 March 2011

Oh NOOO !

guys , school is going to reopen .
u guys ready suda ka ?
matik laa , me mc maw holiday ou ;'(

Day With Boo DANEDANE :) imissthiskiddo.


 This is daniel hugh :) nice name he got aite ?


This is wen my mum took our pic but he don't want . malu2 knun bha . cehh :p


Wana know sumtink ? he say's "wahh" wen he saw his own pic . ee . geram aq .


This is his 2nd pic . sukak dea b'gambar ou :) b'gya kan ?


my 1st picture with him . dea cute dari saya . marah nhe :p


I hold him tight . he's to heavy . imagine 23kg for kid 3/4 y'o . berat kan ?


He don't want too stop taking picture ody this time ;)


oke , dat's all . 
many again pic dea nhe . 
but , i only upload sum 4 u guys to see .
hate it ? i won't even care . it's mine . 
not yours :) PEACE :D

Stop loving ?

Loving ?
yeah , it's nice wen we are not fighting .
but , it hurts the most wen we're fighting . 
ijustneedhim ;'(
godd .


All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

There is just something about you :D

My love for you is a journey;
Starting at forever,
And ending at never.

I give him all my love,
that’s all I do.
And if you saw my love,
you’d love him too. I love him.

My Love For You Are Deep Like Ocean :)

Because of deep love, one is courageous. 
Because of frugality, one is generous. 
Because of not daring to be ahead of the world, one becomes the leader of the world.

There can never be deep disappointment
where there is deep love.

Just Read It :D

Him ? Khai ?
He makes my day AWESOME .
without him i'm juz notink . cehh . kunun nhe . 
but , dat's the fact dat i can't even avoid oke ?
dat's true :D i juz <3 him muchie .
he gave me sumtink dat guys never gave me before .
wana know wat ?
the TRUE LOVE <3




To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others.